Poetry to God

My Poetry to God (via "Entering the Castle", Caroline Myss)

“Words are flowing out like endless rain into a paper cup. They slither wildly as they slip away across the Universe.................. Jai Guru deva.. Om.......nothing’s gunna change my world, nothing’s gunna change my world.........”

Just prior to 28^th January, 2008 I was staying with my mother in law. There were just the two of us and she had gone to bed. I was sitting on the couch contemplating my life and I said a prayer... “please God show me how I can serve?” As I stood up, a thought came to me... “I will write some poetry”.... Wot tha???   I headed to my bedroom and picked up a book which I had taken with me on holidays. It was “Entering the Castle” by Caroline Myss. It had been 2 months since I last read from it so I opened it to the page I had bookmarked. It was page 152 (I remember it well).... I read...... “ Mystics have often expressed their experience of Divine love through poetry....” I KNEW it was meant for me as (often the same thing will happen) and something else confirms the synchronicity.. in the example poem on the next page was a word which until that same day was unfamiliar to me. It was fount.... and there it was for the second time, same day.

So I started writing MY poetry to God:

28/1/08 Poetry to God

Me:   I trust you God

I feel solid in your guidance
My path is lit
By the knowledge of your goodness

I trust you God
You are showing me the way
How can I ever doubt
That you love me?

God: I love you child
I’ll guide you home
It won’t be long
It will be known

28-1-08 I Surrender

Me: No fear, no more
The Way is clear
The hope is pure
There’s peace within

I go with Grace
My faith is golden
The road was long
But I’m strong

God:   Wait child
It will be fine
Love will lead you Home

31-1-08

Me: Why do I compare myself with others God?
I know I am who I am
I’m walking my own walk
I’m finding my own truth
I’m going my own way
It’s mine

God :Yes child, it’s yours
All yours
Be happy in that

2-2-08

Me: God– I’m struggling right now
To cope with this lesson
It’s a scary one
And I’m not strong
I know you understand
I know you’ll bring me Home
“In this healing time here on Mother Earth
help me find my way, help me see the signs
I am not afraid, I am not alone
You have taught me how
You have brought me Home”

God:   I’m with you child
         Go with Grace

10-2-08

Me: God I don’t need to control
I surrendered long ago
It’s just taking lots of time
To shake the cobwebs away
I’m trying Lord so very hard
I know you’re there
But“From a distance”?

God: Child I’m here
I love you so
I’m holding tight
And won’t let go

11-2-08

Me:What a day Lord
So many mysteries revealed
I am amazed Lord
And humble in your shining
I had an ego once
It wasn’t good to me
Who would’ve thought
That out of chaos comes clarity?

God: Child you amaze me!
You make me proud
You fight the good fight
The winning game

13-2-08

Me: I know you’re with me Lord
How could I ever doubt you?
That jigsaw is fitting nicely
I’m learning to wait
Today the devil tempted me again
But I didn’t send that text
You were with me Father
My hands shook so much
I heard you

God: Child sometimes I have to make you listen
I never wanted to hurt you
You are my child

IN THE BEGINNING WAS THE WORD AND THE WORD WAS GOD AND THE WORD WAS WITH GOD

God But child I know now that the word was too harsh.
I had to create the music to go with the word. That
Music was you. The wind. Remember I told you, or did you tell me “the answer is Blowing in the Wind"

Cat Stevens “The Wind” – I listen to the wind to

The wind of my soul. Where I’ll end up well I think

Only God really knows ……….

24-2-08                       Love Sweet Love. A ruby coloured cat upon my breast. The joy of your beauty in every living thing. The deeper I go the more I find. Sleep is good. Messengers and peace find their home

25-2-08 Home is wherever you are when you find that deep peace inside and when you are one with God having let go of the belief that you (ego) are in charge of your destiny.

You are my destiny God. You are what I have been searching for all my life. Such a soft cosy place of warmth and love. I am dedicated to you and you to me. So whatever unfolds for me (Desiderata) is really what was meant to be. The other players in this story are part of me, as we are One. Positive or negative to me, the gifts they bring are part of the necessity for my soul journey

29-2-08

Me: I’m tired God – medicating
I feel enlightened to a degree, yet much still
to discover       
I’m uncertain God
I’m a bit lost

God: Relax child
Trust in the knowing
Like the wool, it is all unravelling

1-3-08

Me: God, my mind is slowing down
I can see better now
I was going really fast I know
Yet I feel it had to be
Time will tell the story
And I am not time
I am just a servant of it
Knowing just that

God: Time is relevant child
There is a time to be born
And a time to die etc
You know the song
Turn Turn Turn

4-3-08

Me:   God– I am lost in the Universe

Lost– yet trusting all is as it should be
Impatient I guess
Who do I think I am?
I thought I knew
But man I don’t
What an ego, God!!

God: Child– be kind to yourself
Let me “Carry the weight”

8-3-08

Me: God– last night I had a visit from a Goddess
She was beautiful

She was lovely
She held me in her arms
She rocked me
She loves me deeply
She told me this is my dream
That life was meant to be joyous
Happy , and all that
Why didn’t YOU say that God?

God: I did child in the beginning
But you didn’t want it easy
You wanted the pain so that
NOWyou can understand the JOY

13-3-08

Me: What are you doing to me Lord?
Can I deal with all of this?
My fount is flowing and it’s good – yes
But it’s a bit scary too
No-one to physically share with
I need that right now

God: Child I’m there
You can feel me every minute
I’m holding you
I’m loving you
You precious jewel

21-3-08

Me: God you are sending many gifts for me
I feel special
Yet I feel impatient for more
How long do I have to be alone?

God: Child– you are not alone
Look at those gifts
They are love in many forms
How might it show tomorrow?
Don’t be hasty child
Youknow all good things come to those who wait.

26-3-08

Me: Lord I love you
You send things my way
Just when I need them
My home is my creativity
I love it
I feel close to You

God : Me too!

5-4-08

Me: Lord I am blessed

I thank you for so much
Where do I start?
If I can co-create
I’m aiming BIG
Are you with me?

God: I am with you
I am in you
I am you
I am
Om!

11-4-08

Me: Lord I am numb
I’ve lost it and I’m sad
What’s to learn
What went wrong?
I’m trying

God: You’re safe child
Trust in me
I am your safety net

5/5/08

Me: Life is a Mystery God
The mind cannot comprehend
Relax, let go, surrender, Trust
Is what I have to do
But it’s all moving too slow for me

God: Trust me child
I know boats

7/5/08

Me: God– I’m lonely

It’s not fair
I know about karma
And spiritual stuff
But it doesn’t make it better

God: I’m sorry for your suffering child

Patience please
All is well
You will see

29/5/09

Me: I’m coming back to you God

I feel a shift is taking place
Not just with ME (although that’s huge)
But with the whole human race
My heart is opening Lord
I can feel it
Please help me understand
I need you now
I love you

God: Stop child
I’m with you
You know I am
And I’m not going anywhere

30/5/09

Me: Hello God
I’m hot and I’m cold
Sometimes I know
Sometimes I don’t

God: Child you are funny
Life’s a funny funny riddle
Yes– I wrote that!!
Oh– and Tapestry!
I wrote that!

And Alice – I wrote that
And on and on
I wrote them all child
I wrote the script
I wrote the song
I AM the wordsmith
I get around

But child – you know boats!!

I wrote them and you hear them!!

15/6/09

Me: Humility Lord

The challenge is back again
A big one for me
But“I’m up for it!”

God: Girl– you’re doing great
I’m proud of you
My best student

21/6/09

Me: God– I’m a fool

I always think I know
My EGO makes me cocky
I go in boots and all
I’m always being right

God: Wait for me child
I’ll show you how
Gunna guide you softly
Just breathe and wait

24/6/09

Me: I don’t feel very smart God
I feel I've imagined it all

God: Sometimes you are so silly child
It’s ALL an illusion

5/7/09

Me: I’m flat again God
But I’m not down
What’s with the pink roses God?
Is it just coincidence?

God: Passivity child
Let the roses come
Love, peace and gratitude
You’re learning

PASSIVITY: the condition or quality of being passive, inactivity, quiescence or submissiveness.

The wind is weary ( 12/6/12 )